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-# Me
+# Zane Meyers
 
-Born to [[steven-meyers]] and [[valerie-sargent]]
+**Zane Meyers** is the author of [[this-notebook]].
+He was born to [[steven-meyers]] and [[valerie-sargent]]
 on April 19, 2002.
-
-## Considerations
-
-### My Memory
-
-I have a family history of dementia,
-and I am medically predisposed to transient forgetfulness.
-Several times in my life I have found months/years old notes in my handwriting
-that I could not recall writing, on subjects I could not recall having ever understood.
-
-It deeply troubles me how much time I've wasted having the same ideas,
-working through the same problems, coming to the same conclusions.
-I am afraid that my memory has been deteriorating
-and will continue to until I'm intellectually useless well before my time.
-I'm not sure how much of this fear is real
-and how much is a subconscious ploy to justify not making the effort.
-
-I project this insecurity on others strongly.
-I see the same signs in other people,
-and it reminds me of my own weakness.
-I get frustrated at others for not making efforts that I don't make myself.
-I don't use this notebook as often or as well as I should.
-
-> [!note]
-> I give myself a hard time here,
-> but my "failure" to make lasting mental connections
-> is relative to my perception of my ability,
-> not to observation of others'.
-
-### My Productivity
-
-In as few words as possible,
-I would say I am "High Efficiency, Low Productivity".
-
-I have several problematic productivity habits.
-
-#### Motivation
-
-My primary motivators are curiosity and stress.
-
-I find it very easy and natural
-to work on projects for extended, uninterrupted periods
-when I am investigating a new problem,
-or a potential new way to solve a problem.
-
-Because of this I often spend hours working on things
-that will not benefit me or anyone else.
-Even if they _could_ be useful, my motivation ends with my curiosity
-around 90% progress, where I'm able to visualize the end result.
-
-I find it near impossible to do work I'm not curious of
-until my subconscious determines that we have exactly enough time
-to finish it before the deadline.
-
-I think I spend much more time bored than my peers.
-Others with as much free time as me
-tend to spend it exercising or in other more reasonable activities.
-
-### My Purpose
-
-I want to be involved construction estimating for the rest of my working life.
-Current discourse on the subject is self-similar and sanitized.
-I'd like to be known as an innovator in [[heterodox-construction-estimating]],
-and for solving some of its open problems.