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id: 2025-11-10T06:53:00-0500
title: 2025-11-10 06:53:??
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daily: "[[2025-11-10]]"
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# 2025-11-10 06:53:??

_Monday Morning Before Work_

I've been trying to be alone with my thoughts more
recently. It's almost bizarre how working in silence
for an hour makes the thought of music or an audio­book
seem overstimulating, It feels right, though.

To want to converse with myself rather than let my
superego be drowned out by appealing sounds or a
fantasy story I've already heard, or obscure facts
about a game I've never played and never will.

I still relapse, of course, a lifetime (albeit
a short one) of unhealthy interaction with computers
will do that, but I'm making quick progress.

I watched a video yesterday that suggested that
it might be my growing understanding of computers
rather than my self discipline that's lead to this
change in the dynamic between me and them. That,
in understanding _how_ they function, I've turned
them from _devices_ into _things_, which lack
the mystical allure of the former. Whatever
the reason, it's good progress as far
as I'm concerned. It feels good to be introspective
and to have time to build skills people care about,
like music and style and... birdwatching...