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id: 2025-11-10T06:53:00
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aliases: []
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title: 2025-11-10 06:53:??
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- authorship/original
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- original-format/typewritten-print
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- topic/mindfulness
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- type/periodic/timestamped
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dg-publish: true
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yearly: "[[2025]]"
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---
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# 2025-11-10 06:53:??
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_Monday Morning Before Work_
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I've been trying to be alone with my thoughts more
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recently. It's almost bizarre how working in silence
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for an hour makes the thought of music or an audiobook
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seem overstimulating, It feels right, though.
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To want to converse with myself rather than let my
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superego be drowned out by appealing sounds or a
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fantasy story I've already heard, or obscure facts
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about a game I've never played and never will.
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I still relapse, of course, a lifetime (albeit
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a short one) of unhealthy interaction with computers
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will do that, but I'm making quick progress.
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I watched a video yesterday that suggested that
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it might be my growing understanding of computers
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rather than my self discipline that's lead to this
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change in the dynamic between me and them. That,
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in understanding _how_ they function, I've turned
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them from _devices_ into _things_, which lack
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the mystical allure of the former. Whatever
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the reason, it's good progress as far
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as I'm concerned. It feels good to be introspective
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and to have time to build skills people care about,
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like music and style and... birdwatching...
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